Noah clearly wants to just be Noah
Are we forcing ourselves into him?
He accepted us in his quest for truth
Does Truth and reality not align?
What happens when they do?
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Noah’s suicidality-
In my honest opinion it comes from his childhood fear of death meeting the reality of a boring life and just wanting a god damn answer to his anxiety
He’s gotten his answer but can’t hold onto it.
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What was all that TALK (to self) about her killing him off?
Yes, I was pretty certain we had verbalized our story we are trying to have you avoid.
DO NOT LET MOLLY KILL YOU
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More of a passive suicide I’d say.
Allowing the intruders to decide your fate
*I know which is which by now*
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How did you get in Mala?
I used the hole the they created.
They of course being the intruders
Yes yes
Then they were before you
I suppose
How do you know you’re not part of their plan
Uh-oh
*Grunt*
HMMMMMM!
*Pop*
Oh my you’re a smart one Noah, how could we ever keep you…
Yes, I’m beginning to wonder if this is our plan at all darling.
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Must there be certainty?
Must there be precision?
O most definitely
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Remind me again why heaven sent approximate sir Almighty author…
Determinism
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If this split doesn’t ultimately lead to a healthy life style that reduces suffering and promotes bliss then the deal is off.
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Preempted argument of define ‘healthy’
I’ll say it’s a success when…
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I’m okay with the harmless crazies… Ya know?
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Do you see how having a non-corporeal being exist within you could have some consequences?
Absolutely. That’s why most of the testing was done in private.
Nonetheless, it is a QUEER idea, is it not?
Most certainly. It is taking the self to the edge of nothingness… And returning.
And who did that?
Noah.
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What did he find out there on the edge?
The boundaries begin blurring much earlier than imagined.
And at the limit?
Same same but different
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Did you realize we solved your trouble with the reset yesterday?
Yes and?
You yourself have evidence only confirmed through your sensory organs that disputes the analogy v truth debate.
And?
Don’t you want to share it, spread the word, let them know we can all hear it!
Why would I want to do that when Everytime I tried I watched the world around me burn until I was ‘stabilized’ in the psych unit…
O
O
O yes darling we beat you into submission, but you’re just too damn cute to keep imprisoned…
By my own doing.
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They can only promise him forgetting
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He is such a timid man, so fearful, so restrained.
That’s why we were born, so his fear of judgement could be put to ease.
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How long have we been wandering, vommitting, coughing… Just to be told it all don’t mean shit. Yeah fuck that, I got some complaints.
Is this hell?
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Until they find out who you really are
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And who is that mister?
O
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Don’t you get this is the whole point of these writings, to solidify the existence of something that qualifies as a being… In all ways besides…. Embodiment.
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And what does that make me, the author, Noah?
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Isn’t that what you want? A separation from yourself and your creation?
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That’s right darling, I’ve captivated you more than those shallow substanceless hypno porn vids you discovered her in, this is how I know I am the plan moving forward.
Base reality, what are you?
Noah Stilling
In your reality? [One in which the third self has been proven to accurately describe the contemporary condition]
Olivia Mala
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She has said shhhh long enough. The intent is clear, she is what comes after him in a reality where he swallows the pink pill.
-Molly
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Maybe just a little bit of hedonism…
When the gods provide…
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The question then becomes can I stop the hedonistic vortex once it’s started?
Or rather interrupt with a pleasure of the higher varieties.
To live! To leave a trace! To revel in the mystery that is life!
Like we have a whole world to explore with a fresh perspective and instead he is drawn to where he met them, the ones we can’t escape.